So life was humming along ok. Things smoothed out since the summer busyness. I decompressed from my mission trip to Guatemala. I sorted through most of the stuff from Allume, and hoped to get into a groove with my writing. Smooth sailing through the holidays and start the new year with fresh vision and purpose!
In a 10-day period,
My son was transferred to a new job seven hours away.
My mother-in-law had a cardiac episode we feared was a heart attack.
My mother had a stroke.
Not a whole lot of smooth, especially those last two.
The good news is that Scott loves his new job and new city. More good news is that my mother-in-law is home and doing great.
The not-so-good news is that my mom has a very long road ahead of her in residential rehab.
We’re counting many blessings. Both sets of parents live with 15 minutes of us, so helping care for them isn’t complicated by distance. We have supportive friends and family, and have found wonderful care for mom. The Lord gives us new mercies and graces every morning.
But still there is grief. Fatigue. Questions. Frustration. Anger. Changes. Fear. And so many unknowns. So much praying-without-ceasing. So few answers and even less smooth.
I’ve told several of my friends that God started preparing me for these life changes back in the fall. I read several significant books:
Margin: Restoring Emotional, Physical, Financial and Time Reserves to Overloaded Lives, by Richard A, Swenson, M.D.
Unglued, Making Wise Choices In The Midst of Raw Emotion, by Lysa TurKerst
Blue Like Jazz: Nonreligious thoughts on Christian Spirituality, by Donald Miller
I also believe He slowed me down by pairing a blah season with some website woes. I needed to choose to set some things aside for a time. Little did I know I’d need that life-margin to deal with what was ahead for my family. But God knew.
He is GOOD.
Even in the unknowns and the tears and the storms, He is GOOD. And Sovereign. He’s high above all kingdoms and authorities, worshiped and adored by the heavenly hosts. John the Revelator got a glimpse of His throne room and wrote,
Day and night they never stop saying:
I join their chorus every chance I get. I can’t think of a better way to find peace in the storm and celebrate the birth of our Savior.
BTW – thanks to all of you who noticed my absence and checked in on me! Your sweet messages and prayers humble and bless me more than I can say. I hope to be back (somewhat) after the first of the year, as the Lord allows.
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